By Anonymous
When they say porn kills love, you never expect it to actually happen to you.
I was married at 25 in the Catholic Church to my boyfriend of six years…mainly because all of my other friends were getting married, and I thought I had to as well.
Two months after we married, I woke up in the middle of the night to find my husband looking at online porn. He immediately confessed this was a big issue for him and over time, with trips to counselors, a priest we befriended, and praying together, we uncovered that he discovered his parent’s VHS porn stash when he was 8 and that was when he got hooked. Once as porn became rampant on the internet, he couldn’t and wouldn’t resist watching it. Even at my begging, even after I told him how it made me feel, even after we had a special needs daughter, he wouldn’t stop watching porn. This was the theme and battle of our six year marriage.
One day, he looked me in dead in the eye and said, “I wish you would just accept that this is what I do.”
Something in me died and I knew he would never choose me and our marriage, or even more importantly, choose to love God over the images on the screen. I resolved then and there to leave him and in a few months, I did and sought an annulment through the Church. When I left, he was shocked and devastated. I told him I’d reconsider coming back if he joined or started a support group for men dealing with this addiction because then I would see that he was serious, and we could save our marriage. However, he never did, and I have every reason to believe that even with a new wife and two additional children, this still plagues him to this day.
I will be remarried soon to a man who understands and renounces the dangers of porn, but I pray for my daughter’s father to someday put an end to this destructive habit.
Men and Women, don’t let this story become your future. Stand up today to fight against porn in your life.
Born Dignified 